I was very upset as the dreams and aspirations I had pinned all my hopes on had dashed. I was absolutely devastated. The whole situation seemed so bizarre as if it was just created to teach me a lesson.
The start of the happening was not my doing as it was beyond my imagination to even think that I deserve this opportunity.The way and at speed it progressed was worth watching as if some force was pushing it towards a most beautiful possible end.The whole process was neat without any error.There was no regret in the proceeding, no where was space to improve as there was no flaw, an excellent performance right through.And guess what the success was nearly yes nearly guaranteed.
Then as it had started mysteriously, the same way it ended and I was left totally at lose as to why was I put through all this.Why was I taken to such a height and then unceremoniously dropped? This did not only hurt me mentally but also physically as the pain was so real that I could feel it.
More than the pain was the hurt that my God had let me down.Why when I had not even asked for this gift did He present it in front of me and then took it away.The more I thought , the more agitated I became as I could not get my answer.
Then I read a beautiful article today that gave me all my answers.
God wanted me to realise that it is waste to make any event so important to us that it consumes us.Nothing is permanent, not even the happiness that I had associated with the success of this event.So I should not waste my time in looking for happiness in worldly gains and also His time in teaching me these lessons again and again...
The start of the happening was not my doing as it was beyond my imagination to even think that I deserve this opportunity.The way and at speed it progressed was worth watching as if some force was pushing it towards a most beautiful possible end.The whole process was neat without any error.There was no regret in the proceeding, no where was space to improve as there was no flaw, an excellent performance right through.And guess what the success was nearly yes nearly guaranteed.
Then as it had started mysteriously, the same way it ended and I was left totally at lose as to why was I put through all this.Why was I taken to such a height and then unceremoniously dropped? This did not only hurt me mentally but also physically as the pain was so real that I could feel it.
More than the pain was the hurt that my God had let me down.Why when I had not even asked for this gift did He present it in front of me and then took it away.The more I thought , the more agitated I became as I could not get my answer.
Then I read a beautiful article today that gave me all my answers.
God wanted me to realise that it is waste to make any event so important to us that it consumes us.Nothing is permanent, not even the happiness that I had associated with the success of this event.So I should not waste my time in looking for happiness in worldly gains and also His time in teaching me these lessons again and again...
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